--- On Tue, 4/21/09, Ray Smith
Well.... Things are different, i have been finding a new way of life. In spirituality, in everything. But i just dont know about you.... I have not the slightest clue about you, who you are or anything. One moment your here next your gone. you go from happy to sad, and you aren't as enlightened as you should be..... I am confused..... I am also trying to figure out why you, it wasn't coincidence, it was our souls and the universe, the all and the mighty. Somehow i get the feeling that we have a part in each others future, but i just dont understand it now..... Oh well.... Maybe you can put in your thoughts about this topic....I also cant help but remember that random old lady, or my dream car, or any of it, it wont go away, and i think it shouldn't and that it doesnt have to. I am trying to avoid anything with you, but my efforts are seeming to be futile, there is more at work, something that wont let me just let this go. In any other case i would have moved on by now, but i dont get it. And it might be that our encounter was one to get me out into the world to meet the new people who have the right lessons for me at this given time.... Well, really got to go now.... Sleep sweat..... That is my favorite expression now.... LOL....
Part of my reply (I actually wrote a lot more):
I dont know about the whys of our meeting, Im not big on grand schemes. Nor do I dismiss it as chance encounter, though that may be what all things are. Does it matter? It doesnt change the fact of what has happened. Anyone who comes into your life for an extended period of time is going to affect you, for better or worse, so I think less that it was fate that us two specifically meeting for a pre-ordained reason for the embetterment of all involved, but more that we're just two people, we met, and happened to hit it off. It doesnt matter to me the intent, or the why, what matters is the effects. What changes because of this. This was good, because I longer carry that needy desperation for romantic or sexual love, to be fulfilled as a girl/woman. To have my childhood desire for a romantic/physical relationship with a guy around my age, the teenage romance, met. Im freed from it. Its the other needs that can now come to attention and eventually be lessened or eliminated. The specifics of this are still up in the air. All to be understood with time. So, have a great day.I dont know about the whys of our meeting, Im not big on grand schemes. Nor do I dismiss it as chance encounter, though that may be what all things are. Does it matter? It doesnt change the fact of what has happened. Anyone who comes into your life for an extended period of time is going to affect you, for better or worse, so I think less that it was fate that us two specifically meeting for a pre-ordained reason for the embetterment of all involved, but more that we're just two people, we met, and happened to hit it off. It doesnt matter to me the intent, or the why, what matters is the effects. What changes because of this. This was good, because I longer carry that needy desperation for romantic or sexual love, to be fulfilled as a girl/woman. To have my childhood desire for a romantic/physical relationship with a guy around my age, the teenage romance, met. Im freed from it. Its the other needs that can now come to attention and eventually be lessened or eliminated. The specifics of this are still up in the air. All to be understood with time.
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